Lately I have been watching videos and taking notes from this new thing called Masterclass. There are tons of courses for Film, TV, writing, Acting, Photography, anything. Each class is taught by someone in the industry like, Ron Howard, Martin Scorcese, Steve Martin, and more. These mini courses have been so helpful in pushing my creativity. My greatest problem right now has been writing. It has been difficult to pick the right words for each scene. Especially because, while planning and writing out my outline, I went a little overboard. I wanted every scene to have so much meaning, that there was too much meaning, and I have to figure out the best way to turn a whole 5 paged-idea in to a clever 2-paged idea. My mentors, and the masterclasses have been helpful when it comes to this. This whole write, and rewrite process is killing me. I think its especially hard for me, because most of the time, I will spend so long rewriting just one scene, that I forget there is a whole rest of the script to try to manipulate as well.
In other news, I am going to start a Production Assistant program soon. Hopefully this will allow me to drop my job at Target, and start really focusing on doing what I want to do. I just want to share my stories. I just want at least one person out there to relate and feel what it is like to live the life I have to live. So much is going on for me. So much has happened. At this point in my life it is make or break, and I am dancing on the line. This is my time to really figure this shit out. I am going to be as persistant and flexible as I can be, when it comes to being a PA. I feel like the reason why I am so anxious lately, is because something good has to be coming. There has been too much bad for there not to be some sort of pay off, here.